confession of. a broken heart.
im stuck.
slowly fading away.
let go of everything.
not worth it.
lost another...
turn back time.
the crack that cannot be sealed.
its obvious but can only be seen if you look at it deeper.
the crack gets deeper.
it's so deep that it became a normal thing to look at.
its impossible.
get me out of the ugly crack.
save me.
please god.
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sigh.i want to got to mandai orchid garden for my malay report.
but it's raining now.
im really having a bad day.
i want to thank saleh for encouraging me.
he is indeed a true friend.
after taking my edusave scholarship, the only thing i want to do is to really thank him.
i felt really terrible yesterday until i talked to him.
though he didnt do much, but there's someone who encouraged me.
apart from my mom.
encouraging is important.
it's better than to leave the decision to someone to who cant think properly.
i want to be happy.
be happy all by myself.
enjoy life while i can.
dont bother abt feelings.
they are just fucking bullshit.
they are illusion.
intricate.
i want to be cold.
feelings are tricking me.
will stop cheating myself.
do things that i want to do.
the water is cold but i cant feel anything.
im through with it.
my heart is so numb.
cold.
heartless.
bitch.
im...
through with life.
im stuck.
slowly fading away.
let go of everything.
not worth it.
lost another...
turn back time.
the crack that cannot be sealed.
its obvious but can only be seen if you look at it deeper.
the crack gets deeper.
it's so deep that it became a normal thing to look at.
its impossible.
get me out of the ugly crack.
save me.
please god.
_______________________________________________
sigh.i want to got to mandai orchid garden for my malay report.
but it's raining now.
im really having a bad day.
i want to thank saleh for encouraging me.
he is indeed a true friend.
after taking my edusave scholarship, the only thing i want to do is to really thank him.
i felt really terrible yesterday until i talked to him.
though he didnt do much, but there's someone who encouraged me.
apart from my mom.
encouraging is important.
it's better than to leave the decision to someone to who cant think properly.
i want to be happy.
be happy all by myself.
enjoy life while i can.
dont bother abt feelings.
they are just fucking bullshit.
they are illusion.
intricate.
i want to be cold.
feelings are tricking me.
will stop cheating myself.
do things that i want to do.
the water is cold but i cant feel anything.
im through with it.
my heart is so numb.
cold.
heartless.
bitch.
im...
through with life.
